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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
As an adult, it shatters me that the child parts of my mind froze at those ages, didn't develop, and continued to believe the outrageous deceptions the abusers used on me.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
Betrayal is a more subtle, twisted feeling than terror. It burns and eats, but terror stabs right through.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
Had I not been dissociative, I never would have survived.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I am hyper alert to people turning away from me. I have a perennial sense of being an outsider.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I imagine everyone wears layered masks, and parades around a variety or panoply of false selves depending on the occasion. Normal people do that out of their own insecurities and ambitions. Mind-controlled people are hollow because their minds were taken away from them. Their controllers instruct these shells of people about what to do and when. Theirs is institutionalized, manufactured falsity.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I imagine everyone wears layered masks, and parades around a variety or panoply of false selves depending on the occasion.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I never had the ambition to do what clinicians call "integrate". Many clinicians think that until your mind comes into one piece, then you have not healed. But I don't care that much about what the experts say.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I see individuals whose lives have been so protected that they seem like pearls nestled in velvet jewelry cases. I cannot empathize.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I wanted my mother to love me. Despite all the torture and brutality.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
I want to see her naked, " Mengele said pointing to Marlene. She cried and shock. My mother flung her body in front of Marlene's and said, "You can't have her. I love her, my daughter." My father said, "Take the younger one. She's smarter, " as he pushed me over forward. Marlene cried because father said I was smarter even though he was just trying to manipulate Mengele. The doctor's chest grew large.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
People don't make decisions within these sorts of groups. They try to avoid more torture. Then they are tortured into thinking they made a decision of their own free will.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
The concentration camps were a laboratory for the Nazis. They put the minorities and intellectuals in there because the general population wouldn't mind losing those people. The Nazi leaders knew people needed targets for their own self-hatred.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
This book is not for the delicate or for people who are convinced the world is fine just the way it is.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
To psychotherapists, I say, don't just leave us abandoned because you think you don't know enough to help us, or because the world doesn't believe in what we went through, or because our trauma is too awful to hear about.
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By AnonymWendy Hoffman
What better weapon than the human brain? The human brain was Mrs Twartski's and Wiezenslowski's domain. The children who were used were the castaways of the United States government, like dogs abandoned and a vet's office. Mrs. Twartski read the letter out loud, slowly and carefully enunciating every word in her thick Polish accent. The German scientists were looking for children who could learn quickly, were between ages four and twelve, and could withstand being famished without dying. Deutschland were paying dollar $50,000 per subject. Everyone in living room exactly Mrs. Twartski and all my aunts let out a huge "Ahhh". My sister's and my eyes grew wide because we had no idea what this meant or why the adults were so excited. Then my sister's eyes narrowed as if she knew something that I didn't yet, as if she had just figured something out.
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